I told you things I couldn’t say to anyone else

I cried on your shoulder and begged you not to leave me

Never really fully giving you everything I knew I had

And certainly not everything you deserved.

I thought I knew what you wanted and figured you knew my heart

So why strain myself by being an overachieving Christian and giving you things that didn’t feel necessary?

I called you when I was lonely and filled your Holy Inbox with text requests that stressed the stress that I wanted you to compress, address and repress.

I didn’t want to deal with anything. I knew there were things that I couldn’t bring myself to even confess to you.

Even though I know you knew.

I knew I was a liar, and a cheater, and I knew you knew my infidelity ran deep it almost felt like everything what was wrong with me was everything I was.

So how could I approach you? I mean I knew you were perfect so why would you be interested in a relationship with someone so low?

But eventually I came a around got planted in some solid ground and found that in you I bounded forward with the occasional step not to the back but to the side and you take it in stride because finally by your laws I can abide.

Finally my Prince, no my King has come.

You were the man I thought I knew,

you had the love I thought I wanted

and you gave me peace I thought I would never have. 

You held me when I wasn’t sure if I wanted to live fully for you

And you dismissed the mess I knew I was in

Without me even fully knowing you

You were the man I thought I knew

Then there was the day you gave the sweetest gift a man has ever given me.

You gave me joy, you gave me acceptance and you decided that I was worth knowing.

Finally that day came when we became official.

I went down as myself

I was submerged in your grace

I came up and took a big breath of your mercy

And ever since we have been inseparable

Now, you are the man I know I know

Now I tell you things and you give me the strength to confess so that others may know you

Now I cry on your shoulder because I know you’ll never leave me

Now I will always gave you everything I have

Because that is certainly what you deserve

You are the man I love and

You are the man I am so happy I know that I know 

-C