I told you things I couldn’t say to anyone else
I cried on your shoulder and begged you not to leave me
Never really fully giving you everything I knew I had
And certainly not everything you deserved.
I thought I knew what you wanted and figured you knew my heart
So why strain myself by being an overachieving Christian and giving you things that didn’t feel necessary?
I called you when I was lonely and filled your Holy Inbox with text requests that stressed the stress that I wanted you to compress, address and repress.
I didn’t want to deal with anything. I knew there were things that I couldn’t bring myself to even confess to you.
Even though I know you knew.
I knew I was a liar, and a cheater, and I knew you knew my infidelity ran deep it almost felt like everything what was wrong with me was everything I was.
So how could I approach you? I mean I knew you were perfect so why would you be interested in a relationship with someone so low?
But eventually I came a around got planted in some solid ground and found that in you I bounded forward with the occasional step not to the back but to the side and you take it in stride because finally by your laws I can abide.
Finally my Prince, no my King has come.
You were the man I thought I knew,
you had the love I thought I wanted
and you gave me peace I thought I would never have.
You held me when I wasn’t sure if I wanted to live fully for you
And you dismissed the mess I knew I was in
Without me even fully knowing you
You were the man I thought I knew
Then there was the day you gave the sweetest gift a man has ever given me.
You gave me joy, you gave me acceptance and you decided that I was worth knowing.
Finally that day came when we became official.
I went down as myself
I was submerged in your grace
I came up and took a big breath of your mercy
And ever since we have been inseparable
Now, you are the man I know I know
Now I tell you things and you give me the strength to confess so that others may know you
Now I cry on your shoulder because I know you’ll never leave me
Now I will always gave you everything I have
Because that is certainly what you deserve
You are the man I love and
You are the man I am so happy I know that I know